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[MEMORY # 9 (TRIVIAL NEUTRAL)]
Apr. 21st, 2011 10:03 amTrivial neutral in context; amazingly sig neg objectively. Also a bit of an infodump when combined with other memories.
* Rescue from Ozette. Tabatha bandaging his head. First impressions of Lloyd's party.
( snip )
( what he learned. )
+ He will take this memory along with SON OF KRATOS on night 39. Interestingly, being made to deal with his betrayal memory earlier means he accepts the Mithos in his memories wholly as being himself.
+ Well, he moved from killing random cannon fodder without a care to obliterating whole villages without a care. (I enjoy that these memories are oh-so-gradually scaling up his sense of his kill count.)
+ EVEN IF SOMEONE FORCEFEEDS HIM SKILLS HE'S NEVER USING MAGIC AGAIN
+ He's not only a liar and a murderer, but a pretty pathetic person.
+ What did he even do to be called a hero. Why does Lloyd say 'Mithos the Hero' like it's a household name, when he so obviously failed at his heroic goal? Must be another massive lie. The timeline still makes zero sense.
+ Was Zelos working for him... 8|
+ ...yeah, his sister is totally dead. Right now this is just an unhappy fact; he has no idea it's what snapped him or what he really did in the name of reviving her.
+ He has enough pieces to realize he probably wanted Colette for Martel's soul, but is shying away from making that conclusion. Because ouch.
+ While there is plenty of rage and negativity and insanity in this memory, too, it is controlled. Which is disturbing, but at least won't crack him further for the moment. Just adding to the nightmare pile.
+ It is a very cold but small comfort that because of his earlier memory, he knows his feelings towards the party shifted before he betrayed them all.
+ While he did deal with his half-elf issues in Aather, this memory will tip him over the edge a bit in a way none of his other recent ones have: he will not want to touch anyone of his own accord, not even Lloyd. He feels betrayed by himself and filthy all over and very aware that under slightly different circumstances he would have a massive irrational hate-on for everyone he loves in Aather. Guilt up 500 more points, sense of worth down another 500. He is going to keep functioning and being around people--he has no choice--but boy will he be in a quiet depressive funk for a while. He won't even be able to fake being okay that well (not that he was ever very good at it...) because really, he has had more than enough of faking from his memories.
+ He will be reintroducing himself as 'Mithos.' He will still respond to 'Faith' if people keep using it, but his indecision will vanish after his two new memories. He will think of himself entirely as Mithos.
* Rescue from Ozette. Tabatha bandaging his head. First impressions of Lloyd's party.
( snip )
( what he learned. )
+ He will take this memory along with SON OF KRATOS on night 39. Interestingly, being made to deal with his betrayal memory earlier means he accepts the Mithos in his memories wholly as being himself.
+ Well, he moved from killing random cannon fodder without a care to obliterating whole villages without a care. (I enjoy that these memories are oh-so-gradually scaling up his sense of his kill count.)
+ EVEN IF SOMEONE FORCEFEEDS HIM SKILLS HE'S NEVER USING MAGIC AGAIN
+ He's not only a liar and a murderer, but a pretty pathetic person.
+ What did he even do to be called a hero. Why does Lloyd say 'Mithos the Hero' like it's a household name, when he so obviously failed at his heroic goal? Must be another massive lie. The timeline still makes zero sense.
+ Was Zelos working for him... 8|
+ ...yeah, his sister is totally dead. Right now this is just an unhappy fact; he has no idea it's what snapped him or what he really did in the name of reviving her.
+ He has enough pieces to realize he probably wanted Colette for Martel's soul, but is shying away from making that conclusion. Because ouch.
+ While there is plenty of rage and negativity and insanity in this memory, too, it is controlled. Which is disturbing, but at least won't crack him further for the moment. Just adding to the nightmare pile.
+ It is a very cold but small comfort that because of his earlier memory, he knows his feelings towards the party shifted before he betrayed them all.
+ While he did deal with his half-elf issues in Aather, this memory will tip him over the edge a bit in a way none of his other recent ones have: he will not want to touch anyone of his own accord, not even Lloyd. He feels betrayed by himself and filthy all over and very aware that under slightly different circumstances he would have a massive irrational hate-on for everyone he loves in Aather. Guilt up 500 more points, sense of worth down another 500. He is going to keep functioning and being around people--he has no choice--but boy will he be in a quiet depressive funk for a while. He won't even be able to fake being okay that well (not that he was ever very good at it...) because really, he has had more than enough of faking from his memories.
+ He will be reintroducing himself as 'Mithos.' He will still respond to 'Faith' if people keep using it, but his indecision will vanish after his two new memories. He will think of himself entirely as Mithos.
