this story breaks free here

* Martel tops Yuan and that's adorable.

Won from Game 97: Charades for Dream.

Basically take this video and look at what happens around 00:30, 3:50, and 5:00. This memory is just a big montage of cute moments like that which Mithos was around for. None of it is actually new info, but. Origipartyyy.

+ Cute cute cuuuuuuuute. /)^o^(\
+ Except Martel is dead and Yuan will never forgive me, oh yeah. <( .____. )
+ Overall it is an enjoyable memory that will induce a lot of nostalgic fondness but also sads, which is pretty par for the course with all his triv positives now. Oh well, nothing to be done. He is pretty okay with this one not being shareable, though -- some moments are just private.

* THOSE FUCKING SOUL GUNDAMS.

Won from Game 92: Feasts for Anansi.

In the final dungeon of Symphonia the party runs into three robot sub-bosses -- the Fugitive (fear, selfishness, cowardice); Judged (sins and the ability/inability to face them) and Neglected (internal bitterness and self-loathing). They are all representations of the pain in Mithos's heart! They have to kill these bosses in order to make taking on Mithos easier, because Mithos's very final boss form is . . . a fourth magic demon robot that is a combination of the first three. Yes.

This memory doesn't cover those confrontations, but rather his creation of the robots and the circumstances around it, probably a couple of thousand years prior to any of Lloyd's party even being born. That was probably a period of Mithos's life where he was starting to come out of the emotionlessness that accompanies the lifeless being state, and didn't want to because it was easier to keep not feeling feelings, particularly when the vast majority were super negative. His solution was to delay the return of emotions by literally booting the worst of them out of himself and crafting the robots so he didn't just have a back room full of emotions gunk somewhere.

(They still came back after, but that is another memory.)

+ SOME PEOPLE WRITE EMO POETRY, I MAKE EMO SOUL ROBOTS
+ In hindsight, that was kind of stupid; did he seriously have nothing better to do with his powers . . . ssssideeye . . .
+ The whole embarrassment aspect aside, this is an extremely unpleasant memory with some alarming implications about how he casually chucked out bits of his soul! It is also full of blatant self-directed hatred as well as hatred of others, which are things he tries super hard to shift away from in Aather. His general sentiment towards it is going to be 'llllet's move on now' and it will probably put him in a mood for a while after.

* And then Yuan got food poisoning.

Won from Game 91: Oregon Trail for Cheshire.

+ Yuan and Martel were in love and Mithos kinda shipped them in his mildly trolly little brother way.
+ Martel's cooking was terrifying.
+ One day she made him lunch and then he ate it in front of a horrified Kratos and Mithos despite knowing how terrible it was because yes.
+ FOOD POISONING ALL NIGHT. Poor Yuan.
+ This is something Mithos was there for/more information on past relationships etc. -- fleshing out how he felt about Yuan back in the day, mostly.

* Playing music for Luna and Aska.

Won from Game 89: Viola's heart.

Another headcanon memory. Luna represents the Moon and Aska represents the Sun; they are collectively the Summon Spirits of Light and come as a package deal. You have to make a pact with the both of them together! And while Luna may stay in one place, Aska roves unless he's called down by the music from a special kind of panpipe.

I'm figuring that they both liked the pipe music for its own sake, though, and they liked to sit back and chill while Mithos played for them sometimes -- probably at dusk or dawn hours when neither of them was in majority. It's a very quiet and peaceful sort of memory; bittersweet, like all his Summon Spirit memories are, but calming as well.

+ More of that charged sort of dere that comes with remembering the Summon Spirits as friends/people in little ways.
+ A rekindling of interest in music; he has panpipes from way back when and sort of learned how to play them, but for a while they were filed away as 'a thing Martel liked to do' rather than something he enjoyed doing for his own sake. So maybe sometimes he will play up on the clifftop, make up tunes, etc.

* Inventory!

Won from skill game 13: Secrets for Madame White.

+ SEE LLOYD'S WRITEUP.
+ I'll be keeping a log of general inventory contents + accessibility stickied.
+ Who needs text messaging when you can pass notes through shared inventory.

Fuck yes.

* Kratos fleeing Cruxis with Anna.

Won in Game 85: Noble roles for Mother.

( haha oh god. )

+ Ssssso he killed Lloyd's mom and took back Lloyd's dad for completely selfish reasons, that happened. That happened.
+ Realization that Cruxis and the Desians are one and the same; that he is also responsible for the torture camps and human subjugation by half-elves -- that is, thousands of years of systemized torture and killing to produce Exspheres.
+ Knowledge of the Angelus Project's nature, though that won't ever be directly addressed onscreen because canon is super vague about it and Mithos probably wouldn't even have been that interested if Kratos weren't involved.
+ Knowledge of what Lloyd's mom looks like :'D They never met directly but I'm pretty sure Mithos saw a picture of her to snarl at or something.
+ Knowledge of the 'stone cold asshole who enjoys casually causing other people pain' side of his insanity, which he vaguely knew about but never had to confront so overtly in his memories before.

ITEM THE FIRST: I have forgotten to note it before, but Zack, Edmund and Mithos also co-own a ribbark named Admiral. He is a frog-dog hybrid, motorcycle-sized, with a robot eye. He wears a glass collar and can roam in and out of Sterling freely, and is derpy and very friendly. Feel free to have seen him around/interacted with him!

ITEM THE SECOND: I am infogathering (...f-finally) for Mithos's manasense!

( THE RUNDOWN )

+ AS A RULE I tend to limit this skill in games and play the Personae as feeling 'null' to him! I also check on people's stats/permissions, and he usually doesn't let on things like OH HELLO I SEE YOU ARE THE LORD OF DARKNESS WHAT unless it's . . . very situationally relevant.

BUT! Getting everything in one post would be nice! So I would appreciate it if people comment to this post with what pings he might get, and what pings, if any, you don't want him getting, because that can be handwaved easily enough too. ♥

It has been forever and a half since I've done one, so QUESTION MEME TIME. I play Mithos on Sterling, Lark on Tiger's Eye, and the Persona Firebird!

Game happened here! Mithos's heart was pretty huge and sprawling and full of partitions and layers and NPCs! Boy is complicated. Players did manage to access all the vital system areas of it, so to speak; there were seventeen areas that went unexplored not counting team rooms, but some can be saved for a future game and they would shift with new memories anyway.

( WRITEUP )

FUN FACT: this heart was designed to be almost indestructible overall -- you could damage things short-term, and causing a total heartbreak event was theoretically possible, but Mithos would always be able to rebuild incorporating the changes as positively as he could manage, because he's done it so many times in Aather. And it worked! No one broke it long-term, only ... short-term as soon as he woke up ... but Mithos's heart is pretty used to that sort of damage so it will rebuild and he will recover.

That said it still helped mess him up pretty badly -- he was due for a total breakdown anyway and a lot of actions taken either released the holds on its factors or aggravated them. So right now he is dealing with fallout from Beauty's game and the region shift + totally intense memory on 95 + finding out about his death for sure on 96 + heartgame on 97 + finding out Zelos has been booked immediately after heartgame. I. Yes.

In the interests of continued playability I am turning to INTERVENTION, ie. calling in one of his questfavors to go camping with Lloyd in a Persona realm where time passes faster than in Aather proper. They will spend a few days there to recover a bit and then come back with only a day or so having passed in Aather! Ooootherwise it would be an entire IC week or more where all my threads are 'Mithos stays in Sterling being forever sad,' which would get old fast.

QUESTIONS, COMMENTS, ASKING FOR EXTRA HEART DETAILS ETC?

*a note: you still can't use your powers to their full capacity, but in this heart, any strain or pain the powercap causes you is gone.*